**What is the matter soulboy? Getting frustrated?** A voice in Angel's mind suddenly spoke.

"Not you again," Angel spoke out loud and he heard a chuckle. "Great I am talking to myself...again," Angel said and groaned.

**What? You thought you could get rid of me that easily? Well if you did then think again...** a voice replied.

Angel began pacing. What was happening to him? Why he was hearing his own thoughts...or rather Angelus's voice? It started to happen two days earlier and he had thought that it was nothing. But now it was really starting to annoy him. The voice just wouldn't stop. It kept telling him to do things and interrupting the work he was doing. Something must have happened...some demon involved Angel thought again.

"What am I doing? God this is crazy...I must be going crazy. This is not good. It had to be some demon," Angel said out loud.

**Overreacting much?** the voice mocked him again.

"Okay that's it! Shut up for a second will you?" Angel said angrily.

**Well then stop pretending this is not happening! God it's bad enough I am stuck here inside you and with you being in control of the body. ** a voice growled in annoyance.

Angel sat down back again near the fireplace and started thinking going back to things, trying to figure out the reason. This has never happened. Sure he usually thinks a lot when he was alone and sometimes he has conversation in his mind, but this was different. He wasn't just hearing his own thoughts but the demon as well. Angelus...he was somewhere in back of Angel's mind, mocking him constantly. He sounded angry and it may have to do with the fact that he didn't have the control of the body.

Angel knew that the demon was part of him, so in a sense it was part of him that was talking to him. It has always been inside of him. It always had been that way. When Angel was in control of the body, the demon would be locked away and he would remember the pain and suffering Angelus had caused and when Angelus was in control of the body, his soul...or rather him would be gone from the body, leaving all the memories to the demon.

**That's right soulboy. We are the two sides of the same coin. Glad to hear that you stopped denying ** a voice agreed with him for once.

'Now could you shut up and leave me alone?' Angel pleaded silently instead of saying out loud.

**No way. This way I could at least torture someone** a voice said it with a chuckle. Angel groaned in response. This was going to be long, long day.

**You are so pathetic. If it were I in control, I wouldn't be sitting here, moping around. I would be too busy playing. And speaking of playing, it brings me to Buffy.**

As soon as Angel heard that statement, he growled in warning. 'No! I won't let you hurt her! Not again. I...you already did that.' Angel told him.

**Oh please. What are you going to do? Besides I could have fun with her...** Angelus answered back.

'I will not allow you to hurt her again. Never, no matter what' Angel stubbornly replied.

** I wasn't talking about hurting her. I was merely talking about doing things that you can't possible do to her yourself.**

'What are you talking about?' Angel asked in annoyance.

**What do you think my idiot friend? I was talking about you not being able to fuck her.**

"Don't say that!" Angel growled out loud this time.

**Common, that is your main problem. I mean look at you. You can't even kiss her the way you want to without thinking about throwing her in the bed and fuck her senseless.** a voice said mockingly.

Angel didn't say regarding that last thought. He didn't know what to say that. Why? Because he knew deep down inside it was true. He wanted Buffy so much and he couldn't hold her, couldn't kiss her the way he wanted to. He couldn't touch her the way he wanted and he couldn't make love to her. He was even afraid to be near her because of his fear of losing control. God, the demon was right! The frustration that he felt each time he thought about her.

**I don't blame you for being frustrated at all soulboy! You love her so much and she loves you too and yet you can't have what you want. That is what I don't understand. Love...emotions...doing all the goodness is useless. I hate the fact that you just sit there and don't do anything.**

Angel just remained quite and just listened what his demon was saying. What was the point in trying to ignore him? He wasn't going away any time soon.

**Just look at the things she did for you in the past, regardless of what I did to her. But you really don't deserve her. She has always defended you, always has put you first above everything. She would do anything for you. But you can't give what she needs the most, but if it were me, now that is a different thing** Angelus said.

"No! That is not true. Buffy would never...she would not allow that. Not you...She hates you. She hates what you did to her and everyone else. She is too good, she is pure" Angel defended Buffy loudly.

Angel heard a chuckle in response. **Are you blind? If I were in control, things would be lot different. I would've given her what you can't. And she would've liked it...no loved it! She would have come to me again and again for more** Angelus responded with confidence.

'It is not true.' Angel simply thought in answer.

**Sure live in that denial if you want. But let me tell that you are not the only with the darkness inside you.**

'What is that supposed to mean?' Angel asked.

**I am talking about Buffy. She also has darkness inside and you know that. What is the matter soulboy? Don't you remember? Before the entire thing with Faith blew out, Buffy had an experience of not caring about things. Didn't you see her? For the first time she felt what it was like to feel free. ** the demon replied.

Angel's mind suddenly went back to what Angelus brought it up. He was talking about the time where Buffy ignored her responsibility and got into troubles. And part of Angel was surprised to see her like that and yet part of him was thrilled. Angel recalled the way she seductively jumped into his arms at the Bronze and the way she rubbed up against him.

'Yeah so what is your point?' Angel suddenly asked, getting back to present.

** The point is that Buffy wants every part of you even the dark part or should I rather say me. She accepts every part of you** a voice continued to fill Angel's mind with not so good thoughts confusing him even further.

**We both have one thing in common and that is Buffy. She is amazing, even I admit that. You want her badly just as much as I do.**

Angel had no choice left but to agree with Angelus. Because what Angelus said was true. He remembered the things Angelus did and why he did things the way he did. He wanted to punish Buffy. He wanted to punish Buffy for making him feel things for treating him as a human being. And he had wanted to hurt her and he did. But it didn't change the fact that he still wanted her.

Angel's mind wondered back to his love his Buffy. 'She was part of him, his light. His everything. He would do anything for her' Angel thought to himself.

**You can't do everything.** a voice reminded him again, annoying Angel further.

'I would. I would die for her I would.' Angel started out but was interrupted again.

**Would you stop it! God you are clueless. You can't seem to do anything at all for her. All you do is sit and mope around all day and night. You don't think about what Buffy wants?

'What are you talking about?'

**Buffy she is waiting for you to touch her she is practically begging for your touch whenever you are together. Can't you see in her eyes? She would be listening to you going on and on about some crap and all while she would be wondering when you will touch her.** the voice replied.

Angel was somehow shocked to hear that. He knew that he wanted her more than anything and wanted to touch her but he was afraid to scare her. He was afraid that if he did something then she would just run away from him and never come back. But the demon did have a good point. Why didn't he think that Buffy would want to touch him as badly as he did?

**Yes that is what I am talking about! Can you imagine her Angel? Can you imagine her waiting wanting desperately needing your touch, aching for you? Did you think about whether she waits for you to come to her at night when she goes to bed? Did you ever think if she were looking at her bedroom window wishing you would show up? Or did you thought about what her dreams were like? Whether she was dreaming of you? **

Angel closed his eyes, trying to imagine just what the demon said. He could see Buffy, ready for bed, in her nightgown, waiting for him calling out for him. Angel groaned out loud his need for her consuming him, making him blind to everything else and taking him on the verge of loosing his control.

"Angel?" a feminine voice suddenly broke in.

"Buffy." Angel said as he watched her, moving toward him. God she looked so beautiful. As she got near and near, he could smell her her sweet smell of vanilla assaulting his senses.

Buffy finally came to her stop and sat down on the floor, near the fireplace. Angel smiled and joined her on the floor, pulling her in his arms for a hug. After a moment, they became apart. "So what did you do today?" Buffy asked cheerfully.

Angel ignored the chuckle inside his mind. "I read a book." he answered and turned his attention back to his love. "How was your day?" he asked.

"It was great! You wouldn't believe what happen Angel. So there I was with Xander and Willow." Buffy started to describe but suddenly everything seemed to be tuned out for Angel, even her voice. He lost focus of all the things around him. All he seemed to be concentrating on was her and her lips as they moved when she continued to talk. He stared at her and thought about how badly he wanted her.

**Don't you just want to rip her clothes off and take her right here at this moment?** A voice spoke again.

Angel didn't say anything but what it said was true. He wanted to take her at that moment without caring about anything at all.

**Tell her, tell her about what is happening.**

"Isn't that funny Angel? Angel?" Buffy asked as she looked at him, wondering why he had a strange expression on his face.

"Buffy. I need to tell you something," Angel finally spoke.

"Okay what is it?" she asked.

"Do you trust me Buffy?"

"Of course I trust you Angel. You know I do. What is going on?" she softly asked.

Angel took her hand on his, lightly caressing it. "There is something going with me. I don't know how it happened but..." he tried to explain.

"Angel? You are scaring me," she said.

"Buffy do you remember when you could hear people's thoughts?"

"Of course. It is kind of hard not to forget."

"I know. But what I am trying to say is that I am hearing thoughts" he suddenly blurted out and saw her eyes widen in surprise. But before she could say something, he continued, "But it's different. I can't hear other people's thoughts but I am hearing my own or rather my demon's thoughts."

"What? I don't understand." she said in confusion.

"I am hearing his thoughts."

"Who is he?"

"Angelus." Angel replied.

"Angel." Buffy said, a disbelief look on her face.

"I know it sounds crazy. But I, look I don't know how to explain or I don't know if you believe me."

"I do Angel I do believe you. But how?" she asked.

"I don't know that either. It started to happen two days ago and at first I thought it was nothing but his thoughts wouldn't just stop."

"So what now? I mean what does this mean? Does it hurt? I mean when you hear?" she asked.

"Not like what you experienced. It's just his thoughts. But it's really annoying me. I can't concentrate on things. It's constantly interrupting me," Angel answered.

"How do we make it stop? Angel I don't understand. How can you be sure? Is it really him?" Buffy asked carefully.

**Tell her that you want her right at this moment! Just grab her and take her. What are you waiting for? Can't you see she wants you to? ** Angelus encouraged him.

"Trust me Buffy, it's him. I want to tell you something else Buffy," he said.

"Okay."

"He is part of me the demon I mean. I can't change that. Sometimes I wonder if he is separate from me at all."

"Angel. Don't say that. Of course you are not him. You are good you have a soul and you are in control."

"I suppose."

"Angel, can you tell me about it? I mean about his thoughts. What is he saying to you?" Buffy asked.

**Tell her that I want her. Tell her I want to give her what you can't** the demon spoke again in Angel's mind again.

Angel tried to ignore him and his thoughts. "Remember when I told you that I read a book?" he asked and she nodded her head in answer. "I lied. I spend the whole day listening or rather talking to him."

"Oh." she shortly replied.

"We have been through so much Buffy and I know we haven't talk about so many things. But no matter what happens Buffy, I would always love you and would want you. You don't know what it means to me to have you." Angel said.

"Oh, Angel I love you too. All of you I always have no matter what," Buffy said as she caressed his cheek with her back of her hand.

**Now can you tell her everything? Was that necessary? I mean it's really nauseating for me to see and hear this. Just get to the point and tell her that you want to fuck her.** demon replied, obviously pissed at what he just heard.

Angel somewhat took glory in the fact that he finally had a chance to annoy his demon. He reached out slowly and pulled her closer, hoping she wouldn't mind.

As soon as Buffy saw Angel reached out for her, she willingly went in his arms, sitting on his lap, snuggling against him and putting her head on his chest, closing her eyes with a sigh.

Angel held her close, her body was warm so soft. He nuzzled his face on her hair and purring slightly.

**Look at her don't you just want to run your hands over her body feeling all those wonderful curves?** Angelus spoke again.

Angel lightly started to run his fingers over her arms, making her moan softly. God he wanted her his body wanted to crushed her against his chest. He gazed down at her lips at soft pink lips and he wanted to kiss her until she lost her senses.

**Feel her more. She wants you to**

Angel lost his conscious again. His body aching to be buried inside her warm silken depth and he completely forget about the consequences that would follow afterwards.

"Angel." Buffy softly called out.

Angel let out a groan. **Take her now. You want to.** a voice encouraged him further.

"Buffy." he called out, his voice sounded painful as if he was experiencing great pain. And he was. He was barely holding himself. And Buffy wasn't helping him either as she started to rub up against him, fueling the fire burning on his skin.

"Buffy no" he suddenly said, trying hard to resist the temptation.

"Angel? What is wrong?" she asked, wondering why he was trying to pull away.

**She needs you she is aching for you take her!**

Angel tried to clear his head away. Buffy worriedly sat up and remove herself from his lap, looking at him.

**You are pathetic! I told you I knew you didn't have the balls to take her and I knew you couldn't give her what she wants.** Angelus mocked him again.

"Buffy...I...he is telling me do things?" he blurted out.

"You mean Angelus?" she asked and he nodded. "What is he saying? Does he telling you to do bad things? Like go out and kill people? Or maybe..." she started to babble.

"No Buffy it's not that. He is telling me something else."

"What?"

"He is asking me to touch you."Angel finally said and noticed the surprised on her face at his statement. "He has being doing that from this morning. He is telling me that I should touch you and take you and god Buffy I want to." he confessed.

Buffy didn't say anything for a moment. Her own body, aching for him to continue touching her, but they couldn't she thought sadly.

"Buffy I don't know how long I can take this. He is constantly reminding me how much I want you."

"Angel."

"And he is telling me that you want me to touch you."

"I do Angel I do want you to touch me. But..." she broke off, her voice sounding needy.

Angel growled and before Buffy could say something he grabbed her and kissed her hungrily. Buffy moaned and returned his kisses. Angel pulled her into his arms and tightened his arms around her. Their mouths hungrily seek each other and their tongues intertwined.

Angel started to run his hands over her body. She felt so good so soft. And she tasted god she tasted so sweet. It had been so long since he had touched her this way. So many cold nights spent without her. And he wanted to feel her warmth. He needed to feel her.

"Angel." Buffy moaned again and broke their kiss and gasped as he stared to kiss her neck.

Angel slowly lowered her on the floor and loomed over her body, and returned to her mouth, kissing her again. Buffy wounded her arms around his neck, arching up against him, trying to create friction between their lower bodies.

**See how much she needs you don't let her go she doesn't want you to.** a voice spoke again.

Angel lost all the control he had before. Her small body was beneath his. Her cries of pleasure echoed in his ear. He suddenly didn't care about anything. He wanted her and that was all mattered to him. His hands reached down and started pulling her shirt, wanting to feel her skin. "My love." Angel moaned.

Buffy was losing her ability think rationally as well. She was burning up, her body felt so hot she cried out his name again as she felt Angel kissed her breasts, which were suddenly bare to his view.

Her hands moved up to remove his shirt, desperately seeking to feel his skin. And he helped. After a moment, they managed to get his shirt out of his way and she started to run her hands over it.

Angel's hand started to travel lower, and started working on her pants. It was then that Buffy's rationality hit her. "Angel we can't." she cried out. But to her surprise Angel didn't stop his action.

"Angel?" she called out and suddenly came to face to face with Angel. She looked up to him, and saw the burning need in his eyes.

"I can't face him again. I can't fight him. I don't think I can, not even if he hurts me again." she said, trying to make him understand.

**Tell her what I want.**the voice said.

Angel lowered his head to her neck, nuzzling it. "He wants you Buffy." he finally said.

Buffy sucked in breath and lay still. "Angel?" she asked, somehow finding her voice.

"He aches for you he yearns for you as I do."

"No Angel no" she said, unwilling to believe what he was saying.

"Yes yes my love." he murmured against her ear.

"Angel."

"He wants to be buried deep inside you just like me. And you want that we both know" he continued to whisper to her, making her lose control of the reality, making her forget everything else.

"No I want you. I love you." Buffy argued.

"But he is part of me Buffy and you want all of me let me show you my love let me" Angel moaned against her lips and captured them with his and finally pressed his body into her, their lower parts coming into fully contact.

"Yes love. Let me show you." he said again.

"Yes.Yes." Buffy helplessly moaned and before she knew it, she was lost in ecstasy as her lover showed her.

//Buffy looked her surroundings and found herself standing in a bedroom.

"Come now my Buffy" a gentle voice called out.

Buffy turned in the direction of the voice.

"Angel." she said.

Angel pulled her into his arms and kissed her. Buffy suddenly didn't care where she was and she returned his kisses. They both continued to kiss and caress each other until Buffy sensed someone else in the room and she broke away, wondering.

A gasp escaped her lips as she finally saw who it was. It was Angel? She looked at him again and then realized that it was Angelus.

Buffy looked at her Angel in confusion. She watched at Angelus held out his hand, expecting her to accept it. She didn't move from her spot, her body slightly tumbling. "Angel?" she asked as she looked at Angelus.

Angel just smiled. "Go to him Buffy it's okay." he said softly as he stroked her hair.

Buffy looked at Angel in surprise and then looked back at Angelus. Then before she even realized what she was doing, she found herself in front of Angelus.

Buffy saw him move closer and before she knew, he captured her lips in a kiss. It was different somehow from Angel's kiss but felt as good as Angel's. She moaned as he pressed himself into her, his hands reaching down to grab her ass.

After few moments, she broke the kiss and looked at him. She still couldn't believe at what she was seeing. Her mind wonder back to Angel and before she would move away from Angelus' arm, Angel stood behind her, and pressed himself behind her, making her press against Angelus and she moaned at the sensation.

Buffy's breathing increased and she felt dizzy. Her body was sandwiched between Angel and Angelus and she could feel their arousals, making her crazy with want and need. They were both running their hands over her body. Her body was creating strange sensations and she started to run her hands over Angelus' chest, desperately wanting his touch as well as Angel's. She wanted more she wanted more of their touch. She moaned as Angel kissed and nibbled on her ear from behind. "Buffy my love" he moaned and kissed her neck.

"Please" she cried out in need.

And before she knew anything, her Angel was carrying her and she was being lowered into a soft bed. Within a second he captured her mouth in a kiss and she moaned.

Then Angel moved downward, kissing and licking her soft skin. He carefully lowered her dress to her waist, baring her breasts and he bent down to captured one of the nipples in his mouth. Buffy arched herself against him and her fingers buried in his hair.

Angel released her nipple and she opened her mouth to protest but before she could say anything, Angelus captured it into a kiss. Buffy's moans were swallowed by Angelus as he continued to kiss her and Angel took her other nipple in his mouth.

By this time, she was sobbing with intense need, her body, screaming for release. Angel removed her rest of the dress, leaving her naked and vulnerable to their hungry gazes.

Angel settled himself between her legs and bent down and started to lick and suck her. Buffy cried out in pleasure and arched against him. She didn't even noticed that they were the only two people in the room now.

Buffy screamed as the orgasm washed over her body and panted heavily as she gasped for breath. Angel loomed over her body. Then within a single thrust he was inside her filling her. They moved against each other, searching for completion.

She found herself screaming Angel's name again as she orgasmed and before she knew, Angel bent down and sank his fangs into her vein, drinking her and let out a growl as he came inside her. He gathered her in his arms and they both fell asleep in each other's arms.

Hours later...

"Buffy. Buffy." a voice called out to her, waking her.

"Come to me now." the voice called out again and Buffy sat up on the bed. She looked over Angel who was sleeping soundly with a content smile on his face. Buffy slowly got up from the bed naked, and she saw Angelus standing few step away from her.

Angelus reached out and pulled her in his arms and Buffy's body started to arouse once again. Before she knew, she was being lowered on the velvety rug on the floor. His hands ran over her body, and it automatically responded to his touch. Her body became fully arouse and ready for him.

She kissed him, pressing herself against him. Angelus suddenly pulled away but only to remove his own clothes. Within a moment he was done with his task and loomed over her body and shifted his face. Then he bent down to kiss her, his fags running over her lips and tongue.

Angelus pulled away and looked at down at her. Then with a loud growl he thrust himself inside her. "Mine!" he simply said as Buffy moaned and arched her back.

Then he started to move and increased his thrusts and pretty soon he was pounding into her. Buffy wounded her legs around his waist and met his thrust, wildly crying out.

"Say my name!" he demanded. "Angelus. Angelus," she chanted loudly as she thrust back, meeting him. He growled in approval and bent down to her neck and sank his fangs into it. Buffy screamed his name in pleasure as she orgasm and heard a roar as Angelus came deep inside her.

Buffy sighed and reached out for him but he was gone just disappeared and she looked around to find her Angel but he was gone too, leaving her all alone.

"No. Don't leave me. I need you," she weakly called out, with tears surfacing in her eyes. "Please." she begged as she cried.

"No. Don't leave me," Buffy cried out again and then suddenly opened her eyes to see that she was in a different room. She looked down at herself and found herself on the bed naked.

Suddenly she felt a touch on her skin, making her tingle inside.

"Angel?" she asked as she looked at him.

He smiled, his eyes with amusement. "Don't worry, lover, I would never leave you again, you are mine now forever," Angelus said as he pulled a bewildered Buffy into his arms, kissing her deeply.